Over the past few weeks I've been dealing with a string of bad luck. It seems to have all hit at once. It's honestly nothing absolutely horrible.. but the fact that it's all hitting at once does make it hard to handle.
I don't want to go into major details.. that could take awhile, but I will give a basic idea of what's going on:
My sh*t hole of a trailer is slowly falling apart. The boys' bedroom floor caved in on Memorial day, one of the light fixtures fell out of the ceiling, there's a leak under the trailer making the whole place smell like sewage, to top that all off the maintenance truck seems to have taken permanent residence in my husband's parking spot forcing him to park way up the road and walk to and from his car after his 12 hour shifts at work. I also got into a fight with my neighbor last week when I tried to park his car in the road after I'd worked an 8 hour shift.
My grades are slowly falling in one of my classes. Nothing major, at the moment I'm still in the 90's, but any more low grades and I can kiss my 4.0 goodbye and every low grade throws me for a loop because I put a lot of pressure on myself to perform well. Again, this is nothing major.. but added to everything else it feels rather major.
I was dealing with some issues with a co-worker last week as well. For some unknown reason she decided not to speak a single word to me whenever we worked together. I could feel the tension. I'm not sure what the problem was but it made me dread having to work with her. She seems to be over it now because we talked during our last shift but I still don't know what her problem was last week.
I'm still dealing with the stress of my FIL not being able to handle my children while I work. They don't seem to want to behave for him and it gets very difficult on him sometimes. They have good days and bad days, but last week they had an absolutely terrible day and my FIL almost quit on me.. which would have forced me to quit my job since I can't afford to pay a babysitter on my salary.
And to top it all off, finances have been a bit tight for the past few weeks. We've needed a lot of car repairs lately which have cost more than expected. We drained our checking account, and even needed to take some money out of my savings account to cover all the repairs. Thankfully all of our bills are still paid, but I don't feel as if I have any breathing room right now, and I haven't been able to send off any more money to the bankruptcy lawyer, so my plans are being put on hold until the finances loosen up again.
We also had to take $300 out of another savings account this past week to purchase an air conditioner for our house. This will be our 3rd summer here and I honestly don't know how we survived without a/c this long. Wednesday was 95 outside, and probably 105 inside. I think my cats were pretty close to death in that heat since one of them was throwing up all over the house. So while the a/c was certainly a necessary expense, it's still upsetting that I had to take the money out of savings in order to buy it.
So.. those are the majority of my problems in a nutshell. May not seem extremely major to a lot of people. I know plenty of people deal with worse on a daily basis.
But at the moment it seems that I have nothing positive to speak of. At least that's how I feel. I know over all there are plenty of positives in my life. But when everything is stressing me out it's hard to see those positives.
Last week all the stress had me in an absolutely terrible mood. Well, to be honest I'm still in a terrible mood, but I'm a little better than I was last week. Last week there were absolutely no good thoughts running through my head at all. It was a little scary.
This week I'm just trying to remind myself that yes, bad things happen.. but eventually something good will happen again. My "Nana" used to say: "This too shall pass". It's true. Eventually all of these bad things and all of this stress will just be a memory. Life tends to go in cycles. You have a cycle of good luck followed by a cycle of bad luck, then back to good again. So right now all of the bad luck is piling on me.. but if I tough it out, I'll see some good luck again.
Man I wish that good luck would hurry up!!