Sunday, May 22, 2011

Planting a garden..

I took a little time out of my busy schedule today to plant a flower garden! Actually everything I did today was quite unexpected. I woke up with the plans of perhaps going for a walk or something. Instead, shortly after waking up I began cleaning my room. Not because I finally got sick of the mess.. but because I had to find something..

Yesterday I did a little clothes shopping. I had to buy some shorts for my daughter's baton recital this week.. and wanted to get myself some shorts for work since the weather is getting warm. I was quite disappointed to see that most of the clothes I tried on were rather tight. So I decided I need to get back into going to the gym. Of course when thinking about going to the gym, I realized I needed to charge my iPod which I haven't used in months.. so I needed to find the USB cord for it. I also had to hunt down my daughter's baton t-shirt.

So.. I began cleaning. It was a difficult task that took quite a bit of time.. but I completed it and am quite pleased with the results!

Meanwhile I had to get the husband out of the way.. and he'd been talking about doing some yard work lately. We moved into this house 2 years ago. We've lived here for 2 summers. And thus far all we've done is mow the grass. We haven't done anything else to the yard but mow the grass. So, hubby and the oldest son went out and cleared out some weeds and raked while I cleaned inside.

When we were all done hubby had some landscaping ideas floating around his head. So we went off to Lowe's and bought some mulch and top soil, then stopped by a local greenhouse to buy some flowers. We bought some purple daisies, yellow marigolds, and some ornamental grass. Then we came home and began to plant it all.

I'm honestly very pleased with how it turned out. I'm hoping the flowers fill out a bit more, because it doesn't look like much right now, but it looks like it has potential. Also we are planning on buying some more flowers in the future to fill it in some more.. but this is a good start.

Mostly I'm just happy we finally began to do something with our yard and our whole place looks a lot nicer now. Up until now I just haven't had the desire to make the place look any better. I've never taken any pride in living here, and I guess I just felt like it was pointless to spend money on making it look nicer when I didn't feel like this was my home. But it's amazing how it feels now that it's done. I do have a little more pride in this place. Not that I'm ready to settle down and make this my permanent home.. that will never happen. I'll never stop fighting to move out and have a better life beyond this cramped little trailer. But since we're here for at least one more year while we work on our finances.. at least now we can be a bit prouder of the way the outside of the house looks!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

A time for celebrating..

We're getting into a very busy time of year for my family. This Saturday will be our 8th wedding anniversary. Sunday is of course Mother's Day. Next Thursday will be my birthday.. or as I like to call it, the 10th anniversary of my 21st birthday. To top it all off, next Friday is my oldest son's 14th birthday. Yes, busy busy.
It has always been a difficult month, especially for my husband. Obviously money has always been tight, and what little extra we had always went to my son for his birthday presents and parties. I was lucky if I got one gift which was considered to be an anniversary/Mother's Day/birthday gift.

This year money isn't quite so tight since all of our bills have been paid on time and I have extra income. However we still had a minor set back this week with my car needing a new water pump.

The hubby and I do plan on going out to celebrate our anniversary this weekend. Unfortunately due to my work schedule, the only available day to have our night out is Sunday. This means my mother will be babysitting my children on Mother's Day. Though we will probably end up doing a mid-day thing as we'll have to get home for baths and bed at a decent hour since the kids have school Monday morning.. and of course we'd like to avoid much of the Mother's Day crowd if at all possible.

Beyond that we have no major plans. I gave up on throwing birthday parties many years ago when I spent a couple hundred on a pool party only to have 3 invitees show up. For my son's birthday we will have a cake and presents, but probably no guests. We don't have much family left anymore.. just my mother and hubby's father and since my mother can't drive and hubby's father already spends far too much time with my kids due to having to babysit them while I work, chances are neither of them will come over to help us celebrate.

I do plan on buying my son a new bike for his birthday. His old one is rather beat up and is too small for him anyway. Once he receives a new one for his birthday, the old one will be fixed up and given to the 8 year old since he doesn't currently have a bike that fits him either. Hopefully he enjoys his gift. I've already purchased a new helmet and I've saved $40 towards the purchase of his new bike so even if something detrimental happens to our finances, I should not have an issue getting him a new bike.

As per my gift.. well I doubt hubby has any huge surprises up his sleeve. I've been keeping a very close eye on our finances so he has not had a chance to sneak off any money to get me anything. The night out this weekend will most likely be my only gift. Though there will be something else which I already know about and I guess will be considered a gift to each other for our anniversary...

We live in NY and have a huge State Fair every August just before Labor day. Well, they're already announcing the concert line ups for the fair this year, and the opening day act will include Maroon 5 with Train and Gavin Degraw. We absolutely love Maroon 5. We saw them in concert back in 2008 after winning tickets from a local radio station. So, Saturday when these tickets go on sale I plan on buying a couple. I would absolutely love to see them again. So that will be our anniversary gift to each other.. tickets to see Maroon 5 in concert in August. Sure it's a long wait to be able to use the gift, but it's so exciting and we deserve it!

As I said, beyond that I will probably not receive any other gifts or have any other nights out within the next few weeks, but I think what I am receiving is good enough and far more than what I am accustomed to. I'm very excited to begin our celebrations.

I suppose I shall squeeze in a little update about everything else going on in my life. I received a grade of a 4.0 GPA for my first semester of school and I'm quite proud of that. My second semester just started yesterday. I'm currently taking a writing class and a transcription class. I think they'll both be slightly difficult. I'm not fond of research papers or typing up business letters.. and it seems these types of things will be my major assignments in these classes.. *groan*.

Financially we're still on a course towards bankruptcy. I contacted the lawyer we began to pay a couple years ago and they've agreed to allow us to finish paying off the balance.. though the balance has gone up a little since we first began making the payments. We will need to pay a total of $1,000 after what we've already given them, so Friday I sent off a small payment towards that. Hopefully within the next couple of months we can finish this off and move on with our financial future.

Nothing new to report about my current job situation. Except that I do believe my father in law is growing weary of babysitting my children. It's unfortunate because I feel that getting out of his house and spending time with his grandkids would be therapeutic for him, though obviously dealing with five children is stressful in the best of circumstances. Our circumstances are far from the best. We live in a tiny home where we're all right on top of each other at all times and have no yard so the children cannot get outside to play at all. They're all hyper children which is magnified by the fact that they cannot go outside to release energy or even play to their fullest potential inside the house. Of course they're also typical children who want to test their boundaries and not listen and not do tasks they're asked to do.

Needless to say I do get stressed about having to go to work and leave the kids with my father in law. I don't want him to feel overwhelmed by watching them, and I don't want him to feel as if he can't do it anymore. I need to continue to work as it has already had such a huge impact on our lives and will continue to have a huge impact on our future. Unfortunately with my measly income I cannot afford to pay any other babysitters and I have no one else available to watch my kids in order to give my father in law a break. Though I am brainstorming ways to make it slightly easier on him.. we both just need to hold out for about another year or so and hopefully by then life will be different and hopefully a little easier.